I Am A Cuckold

Note: received this post yesterday. This is exactly what this site is all about. The post has been edited & spellchecked, but otherwise it is verbatim from what was sent.

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Here goes. I am a cuckold. No one knows this except for my wife and me. My coworkers, my in-laws, my friends don’t know. As much as I try & keep this pushed back in my life I always have this feeling like they know or even worse—should know.

My wife cheated on me with three different guys that I know for sure two of which were nice enough to put her pictures on the internet—just her body/face and his bodyparts. She came clean with the first one because she had to. I discovered emails. I guess she had to come clean with the internet pictures, too. No use denying concrete proof. I am positive there must be more times than this, but she won’t talk about it anymore. Just get over it.

I had a choice to make when all of this came out. I could kick her out of the house and my life, or I could suck it up and deal with it. I sucked it up, so I guess that makes me a cuckold.

She has done her best to make me feel like it’s not going to happen again. I believe her for the most part. I think we’ve both grown up and evolved. However, this is something that is always in the back of my mind. The images both mental and on the internet, the thoughts, and just knowing she has these intimate memories of getting naked with other men are always with me. It’s like getting cuckolded on a regular basis. Something comes up and reminds me of her infidelity, and boom, I get that adrenalin charge in my gut and I’m back in the moment.

Like I said I don’t if this is something that goes on a site like that. At any rate it’s like therapy for me lol. Please keep anonymouse. M.A.

Cuckold definition : cuckolds can be married men to any male in domestic relationship with a woman in which he remains exclusive and she does not. The husband usually finds pleasure through that of his wife and they (the wife and extra-marital participant) may both enjoy attempting to actively include him in the act of cuckolding as much as possible through serving her. Some common themes include praising her appearance, attempting to stimulate her sexually at the same time as the additional participant, and generally being engrossed in her enjoyment, usually while masturbating or involving himself in some sexual act with his wife during their activity.

“Cuckold” is derived from the Old French for the Cuckoo bird, “Cocu” with the pejorative suffix -ald. The earliest written use of the Middle English derivation, “cokewold” occurs in 1250. The females of certain varieties of Cuckoo lay their eggs in other bird’s nests, freeing themselves from the need to nurture the eggs to hatching. In medieval Europe, the law, custom, and the church all defined married women as a category of property held by her husband. Although Christian marriage vows strictly enjoined sexual exclusivity in a marriage for both partners, custom and doctrine rarely enforced it on the husband. A married woman who was unfaithful to her vows made a “cuckoo” of the husband who unknowingly provided her, and potentially her illegitimate offspring, with shelter and protection as a tricked bird does to the cuckoo’s eggs.

A nuance of the word often overlooked in contemporary usage is that it refers to a man who, like the bird warming the cuckoo’s eggs, is unaware of his victimization. A man who knows and acquiesced, in his wife’s taking of another lover was called a “wittol,” itself a derivation from the Middle English for “willing (as in knowing) cuckold.” From Wikipedia